I bought this beautiful dress (photo above), I was so over confident that I didn't even try it on until the night I was wearing it to a Ball. Of course it fitted absolutely fine but I was so far out of my comfort zone wearing it I could hardly stand it. This photo is just so awful that I'm insisting on torturing myself further and posting it to my blog 😪 Below is a comparison, I replicated the photo as best u could but even so, another example, I just can't stand it!
The truth is that when you set out to lose 7 and a half stone, loosing 5 stone isn't enough. It's not good enough. I spent the early part of the summer being told by others to celebrate my weightloss success but I found this difficult. It just did not feel the right time to stop focusing on how fat I am. I still hve 2 and half stone to lose to get to my personal goal.
I remain going to do my HIIT class every week but need to do more so I followed up booking the kung fu sessions which I hope to start in the next few weeks. I also plan to do the Joe Wicks YouTube workouts again which I've linked in previous posts. I've started badgering my friend by sending her my weight each week, but embarrassing that it went up by 1lb this week 😪
Weightloss is so, so hard. Its not just the effort of fitness and tracking calories in and calories out, the mental effort it takes can also be a challenge. My changing body can be difficult to take too. I fill Instagram with photos of me but all will have something about that I hate of which male me feel uncomfortable. You can't lose 5 stone and return to the body you had before. It stretches, I ovetstreched my body! Social media is full of women discussing their loose skin following weightloss. I've communicated with a few and they are strong powerful women, I am in ore of their bravery showing and discussing something so private and personal. They have really helped me. Do check out @mariahlosing and @thecollets, both absolutely inspiring. Would Steve Miller be proud of me? He told me to start this blog all those years ago when I met him. It is a way to be accountable and he certainly promotes the hating of fat and fat habits. Well, I resisted the doughnuts in the supermarket tonight so I am still having mini victories. I can't stop now, I've come so far but what I am finding hard today is that I still have so blooming far left to go. Big Love x
